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Saturday, March 24, 2018

A Day In The Life Of A Reign Volunteer

Hello.  it's been a while since I've writen, my dear old friends. Today I have decided to give you a glimpse into one of my favorite activities, volunteering for pre-game set up with the Seattle Reign.

I will be the first to own, that this is probably uniquely my experience of it, because no one else seems to be as Eddie the Eagle about it as me. honestly, I've always been a bit Eddie the Eagle.  let's call me Mandi the Mongoos instead.

Any way, this was the first day of my third season doing pre-game set up for the Reign, but I have been training for this moment (yes, you read right training) since the moment last season ended.

I've added some weight training, indoor soccer, stair running, as well as some backwards running on the treadmill for this. mostly because of the notorious Carter Subaru tarp, which has been a beast to move for me for two seasons previous.

honestly, it was probably 90% the memorial stadium stairs that did me in. but also, that tarp is heavy. in years past I finished that task with muscles cramping and wanting to just die in exhaustion after. I was a little nervous this morning, to see if I had done enough in the off season, or if I would be bested again.

My day started at 7 am. being the incredibly overly serious person I am, I started my day with a 20 minute headspace meditation on competition. followed by 10 minutes of journaling in my Align With Joy guided journal. this allowed me to set my intentions for the day- to be in the moment, enjoying infinite possibilities, rather than caught with my thoughts in the future or the past.

after that I did some foam rolling which I should have done three days ago, but I decided better late than never. then I put on my music. we started today with No Doubt. No idea why, I just woke back with Gwen Stephanie's Holler Back Girl in my head, and ended up on No doubt. 

I took a really long shower, and shaved  my legs, because I always feel better about life when I do. Monday I had 15 mins to get ready for my indoor game, and I refused to put on shin guards until I shaved. result, I rushed and took a huge chunk out of the front top ankle region of both feet. it healed by this morning, thankfully.

after that I ate a good breakfast, packed my bag for the day,  and very intentionally dressed for my duties. lots of layers.

after taking Nick for a quick walk, I said good bye to his adorableness and headed to the bainbridge ferry, 40 mins away.  On my way I listened to a song called the Curse, another called Roots, The Roof is on Fire, and then 20 mins of the Lumineers.

once on the ferry I took advantage of quiet time and studied for my abnormal psych class. Personality Disorders. fun times.

At 12:00 I disembarked the ferry, and Had 1 hr to get up the hill to memorial stadium, with probably a 20-25 lb back pack on. I decided to use the time to warm up, so I took the waterfront route, and did some warm up sprints and a few stairs at the sculpture park. 2.5 miles, 45 mins.

nothing compares to being at Memorial before people get there. it's my favorite. but getting there was a little tough, because I arrived at about the same time as the March for our Lives marchers.  to those that marched, thank you. I wanted to join, but the tarp made me decide it wasn't wise.

Today when we showed up, the Reign academy was playing some utah team (from all over, but mostly Layton. when I talked to some of the players, they said they had  a few from West Point- anyone I knows kids????), so the goals were already out.  I was sad, because putting the goals our is my favorite.

But this meant we got to go straight to the big show down. Mandi the Mongoose vs The Carter Subaru tarp.  let me tell you, my fitness level has improved vastly. I ran all the way up those steps. and my friend Brynn, who is incredible, ran up them with me. then we threw out that tarp like it was feathers, didn't even break a sweat. mission accomplished.

The rest of the day was spent setting up corner flags, flag pole flags, and all the games on the concourse, and lots and lots of signs and barriers. we had fun filling the bases with water and hauling them up more stairs, putting out programs, and even a couple of benches for the players on the field.

Then it was time to head down to the locker room the volunteers use and ger my big bag. I couldnt find it, but Vlatko (head coach) was there and  helped me find it and get on my way. hes a really nice guy.

on my way out of the tunnels I passed Barnes. this happens as a volunter sometimes. i always just try to be invisible, but the players always say hi. Lu was no exception greeting me with a cheerful hello,as i prepared to run off, up more stairs to the first and only time this season, I worked will call. it was freezing cold, but I mostly enjoyed it for once. 

before I knew it, 6 hrs had passed and it was time to hit the merchandise stand, to food stand, and take my place with my friends in the stands.

I sat in my old spot for the first half with my soccer buddy, then joined the supporters section and two people from my indoor team for the second half. I really love my indoor team, and I had a really really fun night with them tonight. it was great soccer. the Reign won.

The supporters awarded their first supporters player of the match to Michelle Betos. All the players came over to the supporters section for it. Lu Barnes saw I was wearing my finding euphoria beanie, so her me and Bev  Yanez got a selfie for there former teammate, now in Orlando who owns the brand.

then my teammates, my friends and myself walked to the ferry, ending the most satisfying home opener I've ever volunteered for.

I'm just getting off the ferry now and I have a 40 min drive ahead of me.  I've put in about 28,000 steps today, a huge chunk of that involved running and stairs. I'm ready for sleep, and Macklemore for the drive home.

Saturday, March 3, 2018

I Found Peace

For months now, I have wondered, what will happen on the day I set foot in Memorial Stadium again? Will I cry? Will I be sad? Will the magic be gone, and in its place only the ache and longing for 'the good old days?'

Today was that day. I am shocked it came so soon. It shouldn't have. The first home game that the Reign have in Memorial Stadium is March 24th. Their first game, technically, is a pre-season opener against UW , at UW soccer stadium this Thursday. 

So last night when one of my friends DM'ed  me on Twitter and asked if I wanted to go to a closed scrimmage between the Reign and Washington State University, I decided to make this happen. To have my moment with memorial, and not have it in the middle of a crowd sounded ideal, heaven sent. All my fears, all the emotions and the chance to confront them, and sit with them rested upon me all morning.

When I woke up, I felt like I have been too lucky, the universe has thrown too much good my way, and it scared me. I seriously thought for a moment, that with this much good happening in my life, surely it means something terrible is coming and im going to die in the next year of cancer or something, because this much good just cant happen to me.  And  the  I did my Align With Joy gratitude journal.
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By the end of the journal I felt like I had been wrong. Good things are happening because I am inviting them to happen, and I am open to opportunities that present themselves. I met my friend that invited me today through my time volunteering with the reign last season. If I hadn't put myself out there, today wouldn't have happened.  If I hadn't taken the chance, and made the effort of saying yes to my friend and orchestrating last minute arrangements last night, it still wouldn't have happened.

When I finished my journal I decided to get up, take a shower, do my make up and hair, put in contacts, and wear clothes that make me feel confident. I prepared to have a magical experience, and I fully expected on. So it happened. But it almost didn't happen.

At 8:25 my friend dropped me off the ferry. At 8:35 they announced that sailing was cancled. It would be cutting it close to drive to the other ferry, and driving around was cutting it close as well. I felt hopeless for a minute, like everything I had worked for had just been shut down by fate.

But I had to get there, and I had to have this moment. When my friend came back to get me, I asked if it would be possible to drive me to the bainbridge ferry, if we went straight there, we could probably make it in time. I was fortunate, and he could, and was willing. I could not have done this today without him. I think that's an important lesson, always ask for help when you need it. Always.

I made the bainbridge ferry with about 10 minutes before they started loading walk-ons. I put in my music, and started to do my reading for psychology class. In it I read that music, and hugs can increase dopamine in a similar way to certain drugs. I decided then that I should listen to the latest macklemore album while at the game.

Memorial Stadium being my church, Gemini is my Hymns. 

I had to take a Lyft to get to the stadium on time, but I did it. I sat with friends and we talked through some of our pain and sadness, and we experienced a renewal of the magic. I will still be fine in Memorial this year. What I found, sitting there watching  the very new Reign team and being in Memorial Stadium was peace with what had happened and what was before me.

And that may have been influenced by the music I chose. The first song I played there was 'Excavate'  and one of the lyrics in the chorus is "I found peace".

At the end of the game we had a chance to chat with two of the players that I met at the Ride with the Reign event. I was surprised that they seemed to remeber me and our hour or so chatting as well as I did. And that was pretty cool.

So, I think, even though there will always be things about this off season that make me a little sad, things and people I will always miss, I am at peace now. I am ready to create the things I have been asked to, and to help bring the magic in every way I can, not only for myself, but for as many as come to memorial stadium.

I'm already signed up for another year of volunteer set up before the games, and I am excited for the season that is ahead of  me at last.

One final note on players today, it was incredible to watch Jasmine Spencer play in person. She is one of our trade ins  from Orlando, and she was a joy to watch.

And now I will leave you with the words to another maclemore song on the album Gemini, 'Ain't Gonna Die Tonight':

"I ain't gonna die tonight
You can't kill me, not my spirit
History is ours tonight
The people are chanting, can't you hear it?
Whoa-oh-oh, whoa-oh-oh

Open up the doors on 'em, we playing tonight
Bring on the marching band and turn on the stadium lights
They gonna learn from me, this is our church to be
Life of a champion, ugh, so Freddy Mercury"