You know, I think its rare that I reach the end of a weekend and feel at peace, and ready to go back to work on Monday. Don't get me wrong, I am not anxious to get up at a quarter to five in the morning, but I feel like my life is in order, and I can handle a Monday tomorrow. Why? Well, I had one pretty amazing weekend, let me tell you about it.
Friday night I came home and just chilled, by myself and watched movies. I don't want to do that every weekend, but it was nice for once just to not have anything to do. I just sat in my room with my dog and watched Gordon Ramsey's F Word, and Project Runway. Congratulations Dimitry S. on the win!! Where can I buy your clothes? and Melissa's? because those were the two designs I wanted to wear. Actually, I would also Like Chris' distressed leather jacket as well. I think Fabio is amazing, but his clothes are not my style.
Saturday I woke up, and I don't know, I guess I got bit by the cleaning bug or something, but I cleaned the whole house. My room is spotless, by bedding is all nice and clean and fluffy, the floors are vacuumed in the whole house, I reorganized our kitchen. I feel pretty good about that. I still need to clean the fridge, but everything else was deep cleaned and re structured and I think both I and my roommate are a lot happier because of it. Thanks to Pintrest, I also home cleaned the living room carpets. It worked well, looks nice and smells awesome. So my house is clean, all my laundry is done and everything is in order. I did not clean the bathroom, but my roommate did. So, Clean house= awesome.
That was Saturday morning. I was going to go skating, but Thursday I ran further than I should have, and I had to give my foot the weekend off so it could recover. Now it has, so tomorrow I will be working out again. Saturday afternoon, I went with a friend of mine to the temple. Its kind of cool because we've both, over the past month, opened up to each other about a lot of things, and its great because I have a lot of things I need to talk about that are super awkward for me, and I need a friend I can trust and that can listen. Its also cool because we have such different problems but they still produce similar feelings so as she talks about what she is going through, we can relate to each other even though its not the same thing, and we just understand different life viewpoints so much more clearly.
The most amazing thing though, and the thing I needed the most happened when I walked into the Temple Saturday evening. I am going through a lot emotionally right now, as I haven't hid, I am going to counseling and I am dealing with a lot of personal trials that I have carried around and ran away from for most of my 30 years on this Earth. Since I have started dealing with these things, I need safe harbors, I need places I can go and just feel completely loved and accepted for me, and I need to know I am accomplishing something, because this process is going so much longer and slower than I would like. I sometimes think that with the amount of work I have put into working on things, I should be done with dealing with things by now ,but I still have a lot of work to do. That can be discouraging. I have been praying for the past couple of days that I can just feel that love that I need to, to have the extra strength and to fill the void that I am beginning to recognize.
As I walked into the temple I was so overwhelmed with a feeling of love, peace, and acceptance. I knew and I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that my Heavenly Father, and Jesus know, they understand me, and they love and accept me. I know that they are pleased with my decisions, and with all the work I am doing. I felt that so strongly in the temple, that I could barley hold back the tears. It was far better than the best hug I have ever received. For that moment, and since I know belong to a family to Gods family, I know I fit in with that family, and I know someone has my back and is watching out for me.
Not to take away from my earthly family, and my many wonderful friends who are there for me and love me and do so much for me, I know you guys do, But it was so much what I needed because God can always be there for me, and my friends and family cant. God can understand me perfectly, when I don't even understand myself. And that is a really great thing. I need both, and I am grateful for all the love I receive. In fact, FYI, I can really use hugs right now, so If you see me, feel free to just give me a hug. Unless its at work. that would be slightly awkward. I would turn red.
Any way, that said, on to Sunday. Today Rocked!!! I woke up from a really weird pirate dream I had(likely from eating a burrito at 3am) and decided to write a short story based on it for my friends online magazine http://underneaththejunipertreemag.com/ . It was an Awesome story, so I hope it makes the cut, but if not, I already have one that should be in there soon.
Also, I am a culinary genius. Once again I cooked meals for me and my roommate that could have belonged in a really fancy and expensive restaurant. I am an amazing cook, and I am a foodie, so I love cooking, I love food, and I love when it turns out and the flavors are there and the presentation is spot on. I also went to ward and stake choir (which was soulfully awesome and totally Atypical) today, so my vocal chords are also happy. Well, there you have it, my pretty amazing weekend. hope you had a good one too.
Friday night I came home and just chilled, by myself and watched movies. I don't want to do that every weekend, but it was nice for once just to not have anything to do. I just sat in my room with my dog and watched Gordon Ramsey's F Word, and Project Runway. Congratulations Dimitry S. on the win!! Where can I buy your clothes? and Melissa's? because those were the two designs I wanted to wear. Actually, I would also Like Chris' distressed leather jacket as well. I think Fabio is amazing, but his clothes are not my style.
Saturday I woke up, and I don't know, I guess I got bit by the cleaning bug or something, but I cleaned the whole house. My room is spotless, by bedding is all nice and clean and fluffy, the floors are vacuumed in the whole house, I reorganized our kitchen. I feel pretty good about that. I still need to clean the fridge, but everything else was deep cleaned and re structured and I think both I and my roommate are a lot happier because of it. Thanks to Pintrest, I also home cleaned the living room carpets. It worked well, looks nice and smells awesome. So my house is clean, all my laundry is done and everything is in order. I did not clean the bathroom, but my roommate did. So, Clean house= awesome.
That was Saturday morning. I was going to go skating, but Thursday I ran further than I should have, and I had to give my foot the weekend off so it could recover. Now it has, so tomorrow I will be working out again. Saturday afternoon, I went with a friend of mine to the temple. Its kind of cool because we've both, over the past month, opened up to each other about a lot of things, and its great because I have a lot of things I need to talk about that are super awkward for me, and I need a friend I can trust and that can listen. Its also cool because we have such different problems but they still produce similar feelings so as she talks about what she is going through, we can relate to each other even though its not the same thing, and we just understand different life viewpoints so much more clearly.
The most amazing thing though, and the thing I needed the most happened when I walked into the Temple Saturday evening. I am going through a lot emotionally right now, as I haven't hid, I am going to counseling and I am dealing with a lot of personal trials that I have carried around and ran away from for most of my 30 years on this Earth. Since I have started dealing with these things, I need safe harbors, I need places I can go and just feel completely loved and accepted for me, and I need to know I am accomplishing something, because this process is going so much longer and slower than I would like. I sometimes think that with the amount of work I have put into working on things, I should be done with dealing with things by now ,but I still have a lot of work to do. That can be discouraging. I have been praying for the past couple of days that I can just feel that love that I need to, to have the extra strength and to fill the void that I am beginning to recognize.
As I walked into the temple I was so overwhelmed with a feeling of love, peace, and acceptance. I knew and I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that my Heavenly Father, and Jesus know, they understand me, and they love and accept me. I know that they are pleased with my decisions, and with all the work I am doing. I felt that so strongly in the temple, that I could barley hold back the tears. It was far better than the best hug I have ever received. For that moment, and since I know belong to a family to Gods family, I know I fit in with that family, and I know someone has my back and is watching out for me.
Not to take away from my earthly family, and my many wonderful friends who are there for me and love me and do so much for me, I know you guys do, But it was so much what I needed because God can always be there for me, and my friends and family cant. God can understand me perfectly, when I don't even understand myself. And that is a really great thing. I need both, and I am grateful for all the love I receive. In fact, FYI, I can really use hugs right now, so If you see me, feel free to just give me a hug. Unless its at work. that would be slightly awkward. I would turn red.
Any way, that said, on to Sunday. Today Rocked!!! I woke up from a really weird pirate dream I had(likely from eating a burrito at 3am) and decided to write a short story based on it for my friends online magazine http://underneaththejunipertreemag.com/ . It was an Awesome story, so I hope it makes the cut, but if not, I already have one that should be in there soon.
Also, I am a culinary genius. Once again I cooked meals for me and my roommate that could have belonged in a really fancy and expensive restaurant. I am an amazing cook, and I am a foodie, so I love cooking, I love food, and I love when it turns out and the flavors are there and the presentation is spot on. I also went to ward and stake choir (which was soulfully awesome and totally Atypical) today, so my vocal chords are also happy. Well, there you have it, my pretty amazing weekend. hope you had a good one too.
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