I have decided to attempt to write a singles awareness post every day this month. Tonight was a good night to start, because honestly I don't know of too many places that make you feel painfully aware that you are single more than the temple, on stake temple night, in a stake that recently relocated the vast majority of their singles to another stake.
There was a brief and poignant moment where I wanted to cry because I felt pretty much like I stuck out like a sore thumb, and felt kind of socially awkward being the only single person I noticed in the room. That moment passed very quickly, because one thing about stake temple night is there are an awful lot of people there that I know and that I love, and that love me. Ultimately what happens is you realize you are part of one big happy family, and about twenty seconds later you realize that you just stand out because you are so incredibly loved, not because you are so incredibly single.
I am single, but I am also loved. The temple is the most loving and peace filled home like place to be on the planet, especially when you are there with your Stake family. I have this big thing about how I like to blend in and not stick out. I am coming to realize something, since I started going to counseling all those months ago. I was born to stand out. Stand out in a good way. If I blend in I ain't living up to my potential.
So, at the end of the night, what I am aware of is that, yes I am in fact single. Sometimes, that makes me stick out in my mind, but ultimately people love me all the more because I stand out ,and I am OK with that. I love them too. It was a great night, and a long continued tradition of riding to the temple with Julie and Isaac Shaver. We've been doing that since Julie moved here. Traditions are awesome. I am tired, I think My dog is sick. good night.
There was a brief and poignant moment where I wanted to cry because I felt pretty much like I stuck out like a sore thumb, and felt kind of socially awkward being the only single person I noticed in the room. That moment passed very quickly, because one thing about stake temple night is there are an awful lot of people there that I know and that I love, and that love me. Ultimately what happens is you realize you are part of one big happy family, and about twenty seconds later you realize that you just stand out because you are so incredibly loved, not because you are so incredibly single.
I am single, but I am also loved. The temple is the most loving and peace filled home like place to be on the planet, especially when you are there with your Stake family. I have this big thing about how I like to blend in and not stick out. I am coming to realize something, since I started going to counseling all those months ago. I was born to stand out. Stand out in a good way. If I blend in I ain't living up to my potential.
So, at the end of the night, what I am aware of is that, yes I am in fact single. Sometimes, that makes me stick out in my mind, but ultimately people love me all the more because I stand out ,and I am OK with that. I love them too. It was a great night, and a long continued tradition of riding to the temple with Julie and Isaac Shaver. We've been doing that since Julie moved here. Traditions are awesome. I am tired, I think My dog is sick. good night.
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