Huge amounts of stress, all sorts of emotional craziness, and two months of not really sleeping much at all, have finally prompted me to do what I knew I needed to do, but didn't want to do all along.
People, I am tired of feeling tired, emotional and crazy. I appreciate the many people who have given me advice on how to fix this. Know that I do not discount your wisdom, however, I know why I dont sleep, and I have a pretty good idea of how to fix it. Doing what I need to do to fix it, is much harder.
What do I need to do to sleep better? well. I need to clean my house, so I dont feel like Im falling appart- mostly check. I spent five hours cleaning my bedroom and bathroom last saturday, the rest of the house was livable. I feel so much better about life just having a clean place to sleep and live. By clean- I mean my clothes are not only hung up, but are hung in the proper order according to what they are.
What else do I need to do? Well, Computer must be off by ten, and the tv, and the phone. I can write in my journal or read if I can't sleep. If you see a blog post, or a fb post from me after 10 pm, I owe you push ups. Occasionally, I think I can make an exception to this on Friday nights only. Saturday when my church moves to eleven in January, But before that, if its not friday, I owe you 25 push ups if its after ten and I am online.
This has made a big difference so far. I am now averaging 6 hrs of sleep a night, which feels like a lot to me, as its way up from 4, or 5 , or 3.5 or 0. So I feel a lot better about life, and I am sure we will eventually get that number up to seven or eight.
Then there is exercise- Every day at least a walk. so far, I have counted yard work as my exercise, and I broke a sweat doing all that weed whacking, so I think that is ok. Today I did real exercise and my muscles cramped up. but I feel I will sleep well. =)
Finally, I need to eat. and eat healthy, and not eat junk. Ice cream and chocolate cake all day? no. Not exceptable. I am working on it. I dont know that Im quite at healthy food yet, but I am eating less chocolate and more veggies.
The biggest impact was curfew on computer. Its been tough, because I got home from FHE at 9:30 last night, and I had a half hour to take care of business stuff and thats it, no fun. no candy crush. I have found, like tonight getting home at 9, I have a choice. Candy Crush, a Blog post, or an episode of Doctor Who. I have to choose and prioritize because the priority is sleep and being emotionally stable (from getting enough sleep =)) so I wrote a blog so that you don't think I've forgotten you, but my life is super busy, and its about to get busyier, and I choose you over candy crush.
Bottom line, I have come to realize, its not ok to sacrifice sleep because I am feeling sad and dont want to go to sleep. or I'm feeling stressed and dont want to go to sleep .Sleep is now a priority, and I hope that makes me a better friend and all around person.
Basically, what I am saying is, that I love you more than candy crush. You may here less of me, but hopefully what you do hear will be more sane.
I love you all, Mandi
People, I am tired of feeling tired, emotional and crazy. I appreciate the many people who have given me advice on how to fix this. Know that I do not discount your wisdom, however, I know why I dont sleep, and I have a pretty good idea of how to fix it. Doing what I need to do to fix it, is much harder.
What do I need to do to sleep better? well. I need to clean my house, so I dont feel like Im falling appart- mostly check. I spent five hours cleaning my bedroom and bathroom last saturday, the rest of the house was livable. I feel so much better about life just having a clean place to sleep and live. By clean- I mean my clothes are not only hung up, but are hung in the proper order according to what they are.
What else do I need to do? Well, Computer must be off by ten, and the tv, and the phone. I can write in my journal or read if I can't sleep. If you see a blog post, or a fb post from me after 10 pm, I owe you push ups. Occasionally, I think I can make an exception to this on Friday nights only. Saturday when my church moves to eleven in January, But before that, if its not friday, I owe you 25 push ups if its after ten and I am online.
This has made a big difference so far. I am now averaging 6 hrs of sleep a night, which feels like a lot to me, as its way up from 4, or 5 , or 3.5 or 0. So I feel a lot better about life, and I am sure we will eventually get that number up to seven or eight.
Then there is exercise- Every day at least a walk. so far, I have counted yard work as my exercise, and I broke a sweat doing all that weed whacking, so I think that is ok. Today I did real exercise and my muscles cramped up. but I feel I will sleep well. =)
Finally, I need to eat. and eat healthy, and not eat junk. Ice cream and chocolate cake all day? no. Not exceptable. I am working on it. I dont know that Im quite at healthy food yet, but I am eating less chocolate and more veggies.
The biggest impact was curfew on computer. Its been tough, because I got home from FHE at 9:30 last night, and I had a half hour to take care of business stuff and thats it, no fun. no candy crush. I have found, like tonight getting home at 9, I have a choice. Candy Crush, a Blog post, or an episode of Doctor Who. I have to choose and prioritize because the priority is sleep and being emotionally stable (from getting enough sleep =)) so I wrote a blog so that you don't think I've forgotten you, but my life is super busy, and its about to get busyier, and I choose you over candy crush.
Bottom line, I have come to realize, its not ok to sacrifice sleep because I am feeling sad and dont want to go to sleep. or I'm feeling stressed and dont want to go to sleep .Sleep is now a priority, and I hope that makes me a better friend and all around person.
Basically, what I am saying is, that I love you more than candy crush. You may here less of me, but hopefully what you do hear will be more sane.
I love you all, Mandi
Love it. Do you, girl!
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