Why I Want To Be Good And Scared On Halloween

I have a friend that runs this online scary story for children magazine, called Underneath the Juniper Tree. That friendship has brought me a deeper love and appreciation for all that is good about facing your fears real, or imagined.

The past year has given me many opportunities to do just that, and im glad for that, but Im having a little problem, because its halloween, and Ive yet to feel good and truly scared. Because I used to get scared so easily, this has kind of been a disapointment.

Now, before i go any further, let me clarify this ( yes, that is a ghost and mr. Chicken reference). I will never be a haunted house, or a gorey chainsaw movie kind of person, thats not what I am looking for. Also, those of you who recently watched movies with me know I still scream when things jump out, and hide behind my pillow in anticipation and fear of the horrible thing that I think is going to happen.

I enjoyed the movies Ive watched this year, but Im looking for something more, and heres why,..

In the past when I was scared so easily, I am quite sure it was because of how scared I was of my own life. Ive faced much of that now, and its harder to out weigh what I faced.

I think we all want to be scared to some level on halloween because we know its fiction, for one, and because we want to be able to stand back and say, well at least its less terrifying than reality.

I want to be good and scared at some point tonight, in a psychological way, just for that reason, and for the reason that i think its important to face your fears, because when you face them they become less scary.

I want to see something I know is fiction, and have it be more scary to me than my own life and nightmares so I can stand back for a moment and say, see self, reality really is quite managable, because its less scary than that.