God loves me, #lovecurling

Today was, well, rough. From what Ive heard, it was rough for everyone. But, I cant speak for everyone, so this one is about me.

Last night I missed the blood moon/ eclipse because I was exhausted and went to bed earily. Quite honestly, I dont care I missed it, but it did me no good.

I had horrible nightmares about work, and getting yelled at by analysts for messing up on our yearly inventory, which we are currently working on. That is the one thing about my job that makes me want to quit, yearly inventory. Also, between dreaming of getting cussed out at work, i dreamed that my family and friends pretty much all decided they hated me too, and they were quite rude about it.

It was, of course, all just a dream, but i woke up feeling sad, exhausted, and completly gutted. Add to the mix my cell phone is on its last leg, my computer hasnt worked for a week and a half, i have online mid terms i need to take, bills i need to pay (online), and future school/ carrer stuff i need to work on, and of course the ward bulletin. So, my stress level is rising. Dont even get me started on my car, or my achellies tendonitis.

Now, in real life, ive had loads of help from loads of wonderful friends and home teachers, but im still a lot overwhelmed right now. as im sure we all are.

So today on my way into work i checked my twitter, because I now tweet. Follow me @mandigoobs. Any way, i dont really get twitter yet, but im trying. But i do enjoy hearing about my faviorite curling team @teammuirhead. And i knew they were on route to the last gig of the season, and its not televised or on the internet, so i thought id check in to see how they were fairing.  Well, they had a rough day today too.

Their first flight was delayed five hours. Then they had to take seperate flights because the plane was full, and i think they had another hour delay. Then half of them had their bags lost, and part of them flew part  way there then had to drive the rest the way.

I dont know about you, but id feel pretty grumbly about that, and i might not do my best, jet lag, no relax and get in the zone time, prettt much show up exhausted in the nick of time, borrow someone elses clothes and just get through it.

The future sports psychologist in me was facinated with these elite athletes and how they would handle this scenario. Mental toughness, taxed to the max. And curling is as much a mental game as physical, and yes, its physical, dont mock. At that level it is.

Well, im sorry to say for you, team muirhead pulled it together and won their match tonight, increasing my admiratio. For them, so youre going to keep hearing about curling.

But that wasnt all. I was listening to my bbc radio one scott mills podcast, and my favorit curling comentator Jackie Lockhart got a clip from the olympics on inuendo bingo. Hillarious, and made my afternoon. I felt a bit lighter.

And then i got on the bus, and i dont know why, i had news my computer was working, id just laughed, the curling team made it, everything was going well, but i suddenly just got really sad and felt like the biggest looser in town, all my big plans for the future, i knew i can acomplish them, but will I? And for a moment, i just felt like there was no winning, like life will always end up feeling a little empty, and ill dream big and fall short.

And I went home, and watches a few clips on bbc radio ones youtube channel, on my phone while i cooked dinner, in preperation to go get my computer back in working order. And i just thought, its always going to be this roller coaster isnt it? Unstopable incredable dreams and abilities one minute, then a big internal fight with doubt the next.

Well randomly, my youtube on my phone suggested a curling mixed championship for me to watch next. I didnt even know if any of my favorites were in it, but i thought, sure, why not. I want to curle next year, lets see what we see.

The video didnt work, so i selected a different one from the same competition and got to work on my tacos. It didnt seem to work either, then suddenly i heard eve muirheads voice and my mood just lifted. Massive tender mercy for me, and hope and confidence returned instantly. If team muirhead could tough out today, and still win, i could win today too.

So i got in my car, picked up my laptop, that just needed a new keyboard and was working great with external keyboard, and off i went, to go home and work out while watching curling.

After a week and a half with no computer, i had big plans for the second i got home, multi tasking like yoy wouldnt believe. But it was not to be. I had seen it work myself, but when i got home, it just wouldnt. So my friend came over to have another look at it, and to keeo from tantrum mode, i decided to distract myself positively. So I played curling, nagano 1998 n64 style. And I came from massively behind, to win in multiple matches, and ultimately get the bronze medal, further than ive ever got on that game before, twice in the same night.

The computer had to go away for morw looking into and sorting out. None of my stressors have gone away, but, i feel like God taught me a little about my own mental toughness today, so maybe it was worth it. I also learned, or had a reminder of, just how much God loves me and is aware of me. I dont think anyone else would have used so much curling in one day to cheer me up. But God gets me, he knows Im totally geeking out about curling right now, and sports psychology, and he used the lot to both cheer me up and teach me valuable life lessons.

Inspiration can come from all sorts of unthought of places. Take it where you find it, and run with it, do great things, even if they arw just small things done in a great way. And... #lovecurling.