A little over a week ago, I started an undertaking of immense proportions, on top of my already exhausting load. I did this, because I thought I it would be a nice thing for both me and my friends. What I failed to realized, was that it isn't just a nice thing, its a necessary and too much neglected thing.
As the month of November comes to a close, So does the constant daily posts of what people are grateful for. A wonderful tradition, and an expression of gratitude. It was this very act that brought about my own idea of how I could show some thanks.
It took me all of about five seconds thought to realize that if I were to joint the gratitude posting train it would quickly sound very repetitive and insincere, because there is one thing that means more to me in my life probably than anything else. One group of people who make everything in my life have meaning, worth living. They make heaven worth striving for, and I can tell you right now, if I thought for a second my eternities would not have them in it, I would give up every effort to get there, because any eternity without them would really just be Hell to me.
I am of course referencing my most amazing friends. Now, before anyone thinks that discounts my family, I shall clarify. From the time I was very young, I came up with a saying:
When your friends become family to you, and when your family become friends to you then you know you have reached a level where you truly love them.
I have so many of my friends that have become my family, and so many of my family have become my friends, that I feel grateful for them each and every day, more than anything else that I have. I would say my Savior Jesus Christ, and my Heavenly Father also top that list, and I think that's grand, because that defiantly makes eternity with them worth fighting for. but, I digress.
What I decided to do instead of continuously telling everyone how grateful I am for them in one big post, which they would never feel all that much about, was, I decided it was time I start telling them individually truly what they mean to me, and why they mean it. I've done this for one week. One person a day. I plan at least to continue until my birthday. I made a list, and I drew names out of a hat, because every name was so important to me I couldn't pick who would be first.
After one week of doing this, I realized that I have done a terrible job in the past. I don't think any of my dearest friends from week one knew how much I loved them, how important they were to me, and why. That makes me sad, because I look back, and I can see why you wouldn't know that, but I hoped that I had done a better job of letting you know how important you are to me than I have done.
This year, I think I have a deeper desire than ever before to be a better friend. To show you and tell you all how much you mean to me, but I can be really shy, even around my closest friends, and expressing my deep feelings of love and gratitude for you is kind of hard for me. So please do know this. I love you. I care. I'm so so very grateful you are in my life, and I'll try harder to make that clear from now on.
As the month of November comes to a close, So does the constant daily posts of what people are grateful for. A wonderful tradition, and an expression of gratitude. It was this very act that brought about my own idea of how I could show some thanks.
It took me all of about five seconds thought to realize that if I were to joint the gratitude posting train it would quickly sound very repetitive and insincere, because there is one thing that means more to me in my life probably than anything else. One group of people who make everything in my life have meaning, worth living. They make heaven worth striving for, and I can tell you right now, if I thought for a second my eternities would not have them in it, I would give up every effort to get there, because any eternity without them would really just be Hell to me.
I am of course referencing my most amazing friends. Now, before anyone thinks that discounts my family, I shall clarify. From the time I was very young, I came up with a saying:
When your friends become family to you, and when your family become friends to you then you know you have reached a level where you truly love them.
I have so many of my friends that have become my family, and so many of my family have become my friends, that I feel grateful for them each and every day, more than anything else that I have. I would say my Savior Jesus Christ, and my Heavenly Father also top that list, and I think that's grand, because that defiantly makes eternity with them worth fighting for. but, I digress.
What I decided to do instead of continuously telling everyone how grateful I am for them in one big post, which they would never feel all that much about, was, I decided it was time I start telling them individually truly what they mean to me, and why they mean it. I've done this for one week. One person a day. I plan at least to continue until my birthday. I made a list, and I drew names out of a hat, because every name was so important to me I couldn't pick who would be first.
After one week of doing this, I realized that I have done a terrible job in the past. I don't think any of my dearest friends from week one knew how much I loved them, how important they were to me, and why. That makes me sad, because I look back, and I can see why you wouldn't know that, but I hoped that I had done a better job of letting you know how important you are to me than I have done.
This year, I think I have a deeper desire than ever before to be a better friend. To show you and tell you all how much you mean to me, but I can be really shy, even around my closest friends, and expressing my deep feelings of love and gratitude for you is kind of hard for me. So please do know this. I love you. I care. I'm so so very grateful you are in my life, and I'll try harder to make that clear from now on.
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