You all seem to like it best when I stick to the topic of single life, dating and marriage. I haven't written one of those since things went wrong with Chris, not really, except to wine about how much I missed Chris. Any way, its been many months now and I feel it is time for another one of those blogs.
I once had a roommate who compared us to chess pieces on a game board called life, and that when we are winning the game, we let God, the chess master decided when and were to move us. This is true in my life, when I have made such moves I am always far more happy, and safe than when I ignored promptings of the holy spirit and moved some other direction, or not at all.
In resent weeks I have begun a transition, from my Young Single Adult ward, to a family ward. Why would I do this? I am very happy in the singles ward, I was productive and had things to do, I had friends, I had a place. Honestly its one of those happy spots I could have stayed in unchanged forever and been perfectly happy. Except life doesn't work that way. Those moments are rewards, and then soon its time to move on, or you quit growing, and to be honest growing is what actually makes me happy. I love my friends, and I miss seeing them every day, but I will still see them. Here is the thing though, I started feeling back in January that I needed to prepare for a change. In February I felt I should start to easy into the family ward, you know get to know people and such.
I talked to my bishop at some point and mentally started preparing for the transition. Finally a few weeks ago, I felt I couldn't delay any longer, I needed to start going to the other ward every other week, I felt. As I decided to do so, I knew it was the right choice. I had a hard time my first Sunday there, probably because I was still in the RS presidency of the YSA and felt I was shirking some of my duties. Everyone was friendly and I knew I should continue with my plan though.
This week came and it was time to go again. I've been thinking, because I keep telling my dad a lot of the guys in our generation are a bit peter pan- they don't want to grow up. I realized, part of my desire to hang around the singles ward forever was that I was also being a bit peter pan. I want to grow up, but not really. I want a family, but not if it means sacrificing too much. This has always been a bit of an issue with me. So I felt part of the reason I should start going to the family ward is to become more family minded and oriented.
So today I went, and It was wonderful. After having been released from my YSA calling, I felt completely its where I should be and what I should be doing. I even made two new friends, that are married ,and have kids, and don't live far away in Utah or Lithuania, or Latvia like all my other married with kids friends. i have married friends here, and I have friends with kids here, but the combination of the two for here in Washington is new to me.
That was cool. then we had a lesson about humility- being teachable, Move able, pliable really, in Gods hands so he can mold us into greatness. And then I thought about a story one of my best friends told last night about her boyfriend's brother, and how just about a year ago, he met his wife, in the salt lake temple. He lived in Idaho, she lived in Ogden and they both felt at the same time to go to the temple. More such moments happened and soon small acts of faith and being move able brought them together, answered prayers as they were both seeking a spouse, and now they are married.
This story combined with today's lessons on humility, was just the recharge to my faith I needed in the marriage direction. I totally feel that God can direct me in a path that can lead to eternal marriage, and soon, but only if I want to, and only if I am willing to be moved in the direction it takes. My faith in following the promptings of the spirit and going to the family ward was step one. but I realized today, If I am going to get any where with this, I have to be a bit more flexible, Teachable, Humble and movable. because I am not the chess player, I don't see the whole board, and I don't know where I need to be moved or when. But if I trust God, and move when I should, where I should I know it will all work out.
Nephi, did not just go build a boat right when he knew he had to build a boat. First he prayed and asked where to find materials to make tools, and asked how to make the tools, then he asked for instructions on how to build the boat. Then he built the boat, despite his stupid brothers being all up in his face about it, and then he got everyone on the boat, then he got tied up on the boat, used his faith to get untied, and ultimately made it to the promised land. That is an involved process. So is this.
I know eternal families are important. I know I want one, and I know I should be working towards having one. I have followed the directions to the place I was told to move to make the tools, to become family minded. Now it is time to act in faith, Let go of my fear, and watch as the lord works a miracle in my life. I know he will, and he will pace that miracle according to my faith, and personal readiness. I am excited for the journey ahead, I know it will not always be easy, But I know eventually, I will get to the promised land.
I once had a roommate who compared us to chess pieces on a game board called life, and that when we are winning the game, we let God, the chess master decided when and were to move us. This is true in my life, when I have made such moves I am always far more happy, and safe than when I ignored promptings of the holy spirit and moved some other direction, or not at all.
In resent weeks I have begun a transition, from my Young Single Adult ward, to a family ward. Why would I do this? I am very happy in the singles ward, I was productive and had things to do, I had friends, I had a place. Honestly its one of those happy spots I could have stayed in unchanged forever and been perfectly happy. Except life doesn't work that way. Those moments are rewards, and then soon its time to move on, or you quit growing, and to be honest growing is what actually makes me happy. I love my friends, and I miss seeing them every day, but I will still see them. Here is the thing though, I started feeling back in January that I needed to prepare for a change. In February I felt I should start to easy into the family ward, you know get to know people and such.
I talked to my bishop at some point and mentally started preparing for the transition. Finally a few weeks ago, I felt I couldn't delay any longer, I needed to start going to the other ward every other week, I felt. As I decided to do so, I knew it was the right choice. I had a hard time my first Sunday there, probably because I was still in the RS presidency of the YSA and felt I was shirking some of my duties. Everyone was friendly and I knew I should continue with my plan though.
This week came and it was time to go again. I've been thinking, because I keep telling my dad a lot of the guys in our generation are a bit peter pan- they don't want to grow up. I realized, part of my desire to hang around the singles ward forever was that I was also being a bit peter pan. I want to grow up, but not really. I want a family, but not if it means sacrificing too much. This has always been a bit of an issue with me. So I felt part of the reason I should start going to the family ward is to become more family minded and oriented.
So today I went, and It was wonderful. After having been released from my YSA calling, I felt completely its where I should be and what I should be doing. I even made two new friends, that are married ,and have kids, and don't live far away in Utah or Lithuania, or Latvia like all my other married with kids friends. i have married friends here, and I have friends with kids here, but the combination of the two for here in Washington is new to me.
That was cool. then we had a lesson about humility- being teachable, Move able, pliable really, in Gods hands so he can mold us into greatness. And then I thought about a story one of my best friends told last night about her boyfriend's brother, and how just about a year ago, he met his wife, in the salt lake temple. He lived in Idaho, she lived in Ogden and they both felt at the same time to go to the temple. More such moments happened and soon small acts of faith and being move able brought them together, answered prayers as they were both seeking a spouse, and now they are married.
This story combined with today's lessons on humility, was just the recharge to my faith I needed in the marriage direction. I totally feel that God can direct me in a path that can lead to eternal marriage, and soon, but only if I want to, and only if I am willing to be moved in the direction it takes. My faith in following the promptings of the spirit and going to the family ward was step one. but I realized today, If I am going to get any where with this, I have to be a bit more flexible, Teachable, Humble and movable. because I am not the chess player, I don't see the whole board, and I don't know where I need to be moved or when. But if I trust God, and move when I should, where I should I know it will all work out.
Nephi, did not just go build a boat right when he knew he had to build a boat. First he prayed and asked where to find materials to make tools, and asked how to make the tools, then he asked for instructions on how to build the boat. Then he built the boat, despite his stupid brothers being all up in his face about it, and then he got everyone on the boat, then he got tied up on the boat, used his faith to get untied, and ultimately made it to the promised land. That is an involved process. So is this.
I know eternal families are important. I know I want one, and I know I should be working towards having one. I have followed the directions to the place I was told to move to make the tools, to become family minded. Now it is time to act in faith, Let go of my fear, and watch as the lord works a miracle in my life. I know he will, and he will pace that miracle according to my faith, and personal readiness. I am excited for the journey ahead, I know it will not always be easy, But I know eventually, I will get to the promised land.
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