It has impressed me that even though I came home from my trip and quit writing, people are still reading my blog. Because of this I have wanted to write something for you for days, But I can't. I don't know that I have anything to say right now that anyone would want to hear. And there are a lot of things I just can't say right now.
I know that this has been a place where I have spoken my feelings quite honestly and I have shared a lot with you. I like that I can do that, and I hope that I can do that again. As much as I can say right now, I will, because I love you guys, and I appreciate that you have kept reading.
I had the most amazing, spectacular time in Europe. I loved every second of it, and I saw so many Miracles. The funny thing about life, is that there is this thing called opposition. You can't know the good unless you also have the bad , the hard, etc.
I still recognize that I am incredibly blessed. I have an amazing family in Utah. I have some amazing friends/adopted family right here with me in Washington, and I am having some amazing opportunities come up with my job.
I am also probably having one of the hardest times I've ever had in my life. I have a whole new set of emotions I am trying to deal with and handle, I feel like I have lost some of my ability to trust, to open up to people, and I am trying really hard not to lose any more, and trying to gain back some of what was lost.
I'm trying to keep the negative thoughts in my head at bay, trying to win out with the positive. There are a few things right now that I am feeling really hurt about. I'm trying to process them, and not become bitter, resentful or anything else like that, because that isn't who I am, and that wont make me happy.
I am trying, but I am also allowing myself to be human this time. I don't know how long its going to take me to really want to write something here again. I don't know how long its going to take for my sense of humor to come back, but I'm going to need a little bit of time probably. I'm going to need a lot of friends, and a lot of hugs, and a lot of encouragement right now.
That's all I can say, and that's all I want to say .Thank you for being my friends, and for reading my blog, even when I quit writing.
I know that this has been a place where I have spoken my feelings quite honestly and I have shared a lot with you. I like that I can do that, and I hope that I can do that again. As much as I can say right now, I will, because I love you guys, and I appreciate that you have kept reading.
I had the most amazing, spectacular time in Europe. I loved every second of it, and I saw so many Miracles. The funny thing about life, is that there is this thing called opposition. You can't know the good unless you also have the bad , the hard, etc.
I still recognize that I am incredibly blessed. I have an amazing family in Utah. I have some amazing friends/adopted family right here with me in Washington, and I am having some amazing opportunities come up with my job.
I am also probably having one of the hardest times I've ever had in my life. I have a whole new set of emotions I am trying to deal with and handle, I feel like I have lost some of my ability to trust, to open up to people, and I am trying really hard not to lose any more, and trying to gain back some of what was lost.
I'm trying to keep the negative thoughts in my head at bay, trying to win out with the positive. There are a few things right now that I am feeling really hurt about. I'm trying to process them, and not become bitter, resentful or anything else like that, because that isn't who I am, and that wont make me happy.
I am trying, but I am also allowing myself to be human this time. I don't know how long its going to take me to really want to write something here again. I don't know how long its going to take for my sense of humor to come back, but I'm going to need a little bit of time probably. I'm going to need a lot of friends, and a lot of hugs, and a lot of encouragement right now.
That's all I can say, and that's all I want to say .Thank you for being my friends, and for reading my blog, even when I quit writing.
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