Bitter Sweet Release''

Today I was released from two callings. Then I was called to two more. I will not lie, Being Primary Secretary was one of the most physically and mentally challenging callings I have ever had. I'd also say it was a spiritual challenge, as I spent a great deal of time running around the church on Sundays, and rarely got to hear talks, or sing songs. It was a lot to do. Considering I started out that calling both being Secretary and teaching CTR 6,  It was less exhausting at the end than it was in the beginning.

 I was released from both primary worker and Secretary today, so I am now out of the primary. Part of me- is pretty happy about this. I get to go to Relief Society, and I dont have to assign anyone to give primary talks. But another part of me is really really sad. I actually feel this calling was a really great blessing. Not having kids of my own, and not living near my neices and nephews, and having spent a good deal of my last decade in YSA wards, my experience, and confidence in working with children was near zero when I came in. 

 This calling has been a great blessing, because I have gained a lot of confidence in working with children, babysitting children, entertaining children, and appreciating children.You know whats great about kids? The can really just show you so much love when you need it. I love all the high fives I got, and sometimes hug attacks/ambushes when I was trying to get things ready for opening exercises on Sunday mornings. I loved being able to sit by someone who was acting out, and to just take a minute to listen to their simple problems- which were massive to them, and just help them feel a little better about life. its amazing, even the cute girl who thinks my name is "Sister Megan" just makes my day. She may not say my name correctly, but I know she looks up to me a little, and that makes me want to try a little harder to stand a little taller. 

  I as with all things, I think the Lord knows what he was doing. I think the timing of this release is just right, but I am grateful for the chance I had to get to know some amazing kids, and gain a little bit more confidence.  I am excited for my two new callings, as it seems the Lord always wants me to have two any more- ward bulletin person, and Single Adult Rep.  After talking to the bishop, we decided I can be called the "Bulleteer"  I think that's a much cooler name.  I finally feel Im in a place I can make a real difference with the Single Adults, because I am actually comfortable with , and participating in Single Adult activities, which are really incredibly great.  I dont know about being "bulleteer" but, Im sure theres something great I can learn from that two. It may be two callings, but maybe its a calling that will let me just breath a little, and I think I may need that now. 

 To my many many friends in primary- both  teachers and children, Im gonna miss working with you each Sunday. Its been my pleasure. I think some of the most incredible people are in the Primary, and they have become some of my greatest friends, and always will be. I think though, I may need to make a few new friends, and see if I can't help grow that single adult FHE so that so many people from Silverdale are going, that our stake can have its own Single Adult FHE. That would be cool.  any way, mixed thoughts and feelings today. I will miss the special spirit of primary for sure, but I may need a good RS lesson or two to fill my canteen a  bit.