Hi Ho, Hi ho, its off to work I go....
So how do you feel about that Mandi?
Well, I'd like to start out by saying that last night one of my friends advised me that if I start conversing with myself, I should stop, because I dont need that in my life right now. But then we agreed as long as I dont do it in public its fine. A blog isn't public. Its quite private, so I will now interview myself about the shutdown, and the re-open.
So, Mandi, Tomorrow you go back to work? what are your thoughts and feelings on that?
-Well Mandi, My initial thoughts and feelings on that are that I had plans for tomorrow, to mow my friends lawn in the fog shine, and play with my dog, inside. he's an inside dog. Im pretty sad that I now don't get to do that. As much as I love sitting in an office and paying my bills, the past few weeks have shown me what I really love to do is either work outside, by myself or with one other person, or translate french family history documents inside with one other person, or bake with one other person and maybe some small children around, surprise friends with goodies, or, sit on my bed cuddle with my dog and watch shows that have David Tennant or Tim Gunn in them. I also like to clean things, play guitar, learn things, sing, oh yeah, and sleep in until 8 or 9 am. I like 8 to 9 hrs of sleep.
Therefore, the thought of waking up at 4:30, leaving my cute fuzzy friend alone in the cold darkness, and getting on a bus or a ferry so i can sit in an office where im surrounded by people who may want to interact with me on a group basis, and at times in an over whelming fashion, while looking out the window at the sunshine that I dont get to feel or experience kind of scares me and makes me sad.
But Mandi, wont you be relieved to have money in to pay your bills?
-yes. That is why Iwill wake up and part with my puppy. and that is the only reason I will part with my puppy, to buy us food and pay rent.
Mandi, is it true that this time alone might have made you a bit crazy and unhinged?
- Seriously? I am interviewing myself in a blog. Also, I have lost the ability to focus on anything the last few days because of stress, and I am pretty sure for the duration of this furlough (though it may have started before that) I CRY ABOUT EVERYTHING- happy? Cry, Sad? cry, stressed? cry Confused? cry. every other emotion in between? CRY CRY CRY!! and then create something awesome. yes, I am getttin a bit weird. Ok Yes, maybe I need to go back to work so that I can do things like- know what day it is, or remember to eat three meals, or learn how to interact with people, like big groups of people, without crying.
So, Mandi, how would you sum up your feelings about returning to work tomorrow?
_Mixed. thats all. Mixed. And happy I saved my ten dollar starbucks gift card. Im pretty sure i will need a salted carmel hot chocolate tomorrow.
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So how do you feel about that Mandi?
Well, I'd like to start out by saying that last night one of my friends advised me that if I start conversing with myself, I should stop, because I dont need that in my life right now. But then we agreed as long as I dont do it in public its fine. A blog isn't public. Its quite private, so I will now interview myself about the shutdown, and the re-open.
So, Mandi, Tomorrow you go back to work? what are your thoughts and feelings on that?
-Well Mandi, My initial thoughts and feelings on that are that I had plans for tomorrow, to mow my friends lawn in the fog shine, and play with my dog, inside. he's an inside dog. Im pretty sad that I now don't get to do that. As much as I love sitting in an office and paying my bills, the past few weeks have shown me what I really love to do is either work outside, by myself or with one other person, or translate french family history documents inside with one other person, or bake with one other person and maybe some small children around, surprise friends with goodies, or, sit on my bed cuddle with my dog and watch shows that have David Tennant or Tim Gunn in them. I also like to clean things, play guitar, learn things, sing, oh yeah, and sleep in until 8 or 9 am. I like 8 to 9 hrs of sleep.
Therefore, the thought of waking up at 4:30, leaving my cute fuzzy friend alone in the cold darkness, and getting on a bus or a ferry so i can sit in an office where im surrounded by people who may want to interact with me on a group basis, and at times in an over whelming fashion, while looking out the window at the sunshine that I dont get to feel or experience kind of scares me and makes me sad.
But Mandi, wont you be relieved to have money in to pay your bills?
-yes. That is why Iwill wake up and part with my puppy. and that is the only reason I will part with my puppy, to buy us food and pay rent.
Mandi, is it true that this time alone might have made you a bit crazy and unhinged?
- Seriously? I am interviewing myself in a blog. Also, I have lost the ability to focus on anything the last few days because of stress, and I am pretty sure for the duration of this furlough (though it may have started before that) I CRY ABOUT EVERYTHING- happy? Cry, Sad? cry, stressed? cry Confused? cry. every other emotion in between? CRY CRY CRY!! and then create something awesome. yes, I am getttin a bit weird. Ok Yes, maybe I need to go back to work so that I can do things like- know what day it is, or remember to eat three meals, or learn how to interact with people, like big groups of people, without crying.
So, Mandi, how would you sum up your feelings about returning to work tomorrow?
_Mixed. thats all. Mixed. And happy I saved my ten dollar starbucks gift card. Im pretty sure i will need a salted carmel hot chocolate tomorrow.
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