So. I like to start everything with so. Why? well, its a great way to delay saying what I actually want to say, especially at times when I am having a hard time saying it.
I've faced and done a lot of hard things this year. Always facing and doing hard things is better than hiding and running away from them, I know that from experience. However, It doesn't make it any easier to do the hard things, or make me less procrastinatory (yup I just made up a word for funzies) in doing those hard things.
I have found however, that when I do procrastinate doing hard things, it does not make me less miserable than actually doing them, it just drags the misery out longer. But, even as I write this post, I do so to procrastinate doing some hard, but important writing in other places. Why? I have nothing really to say right now in this blog, except how miserable delaying writing what must be written makes me, but alas, I am lacking courage to write what must be written, and I keep hoping that some how magically, in the writing of this blog, or the playing of candy crush on face book and other useless endeavors, I will some how suddenly gain all the courage needed.
Let us learn. Courage doesn't come before it is needed. It doesn't come in waiting. Courage comes in running to the battle and facing down those demons that threaten to destroy all your peace and happiness. The longer you wait to face them, the more power they gain. The sooner you face and fight, the sooner that peace and courage can come to you.
now, if you'll excuse me, I have found my courage. I shall go write.
I've faced and done a lot of hard things this year. Always facing and doing hard things is better than hiding and running away from them, I know that from experience. However, It doesn't make it any easier to do the hard things, or make me less procrastinatory (yup I just made up a word for funzies) in doing those hard things.
I have found however, that when I do procrastinate doing hard things, it does not make me less miserable than actually doing them, it just drags the misery out longer. But, even as I write this post, I do so to procrastinate doing some hard, but important writing in other places. Why? I have nothing really to say right now in this blog, except how miserable delaying writing what must be written makes me, but alas, I am lacking courage to write what must be written, and I keep hoping that some how magically, in the writing of this blog, or the playing of candy crush on face book and other useless endeavors, I will some how suddenly gain all the courage needed.
Let us learn. Courage doesn't come before it is needed. It doesn't come in waiting. Courage comes in running to the battle and facing down those demons that threaten to destroy all your peace and happiness. The longer you wait to face them, the more power they gain. The sooner you face and fight, the sooner that peace and courage can come to you.
now, if you'll excuse me, I have found my courage. I shall go write.
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